Lustful Infatuation: Feeding the Illusion

"You know my name... cause you have whispered it on your tongue a dozen times, just this week.  I am your perfect lover, and I am always here."

I know it is wrong of me to think of you in these ways, but alas my mind body and soul are at a point of delving into the sweet texture of your knowing.  I wish to caress the skin that covers you with firm adoration and purposeful intentions.  I would enjoy arousing you to depths within your own being.  I have gazed upon you, without you looking, simply to drink your intoxicating radiance into my mouth - via my eyes.  I know parts of you that I long to explore but yet only have through ethereal worlds where there are no restrictions to physical contact.  I see you there, clueless to my observation, beautiful, clever, and dynamic.  Yet, my sweet beloved muse, you tease me.  You tease me without even knowing of this torment.  Sometimes, I wonder if you are aware of my lustful infatuation that I would give 1 breath just to be able to raise your voice to crescendic ovation.  When your face catches mine, I simply smile.  A sweet and gentle smile so that you know I mean you no harm.  In the grandness of everything, we may not even make contact - the way I would want us to.  But simply to gaze upon your regularity of being fills me with elated appreciation of perceiving such a gift.  I wish there was a way for me to convey my heart, no - my lust, so that you could know that my abyss of mystery waits for you.  Come closer dear one, and allow me the alluring scent of your essence so that I may carry your perfection with me always.  Bless me with a kiss perhaps, to fill my soul with light, so that I may glow each time your name is said on my lips.  If I could be with you, I would find a way.  Our space, and differences reduce this logical union.  Instead, I inhale you - in simplistic devotion, allowing my illusion to be fed.

By Arthena Sophia

Delusion or Illumination

Writers are seekers of information.

Some seek truth, others create distractions, and others still combine the two as in "historical fiction".  In observing the different styles of writing and comparing my own, I see only 3 general types of books.  Books on delusion: fantasy, fable, fiction.  Books of Illumination: self-help, texts, biography. And books of regurgitation: anything already written but then re-analyzed but a different author; university or college texts for example.  With the last category, i would love to read a concise book.  So often there is a plethora of drivel in the book that gives kudos to pioneers in the field, addresses how the author came to write this book, and of course, who they would like to thank for leading them on this path.  I propose that authors of regurgitation re-structure their texts/novels as such:

• Research: a list of all sourced to acknowledge.
• Authors Insight: the concise message the author wishes to convey.
• Additional Reading: Suggestions of books read by the author to offer to the reader should they too desire more information.

What I have noticed is that the length of the book is more important than the content, and I would like this stopped.  Of course not everyone will follow my suggestions, as this is merely an observation.  Such an example of a concise book that allows the mind to ponder itself, and yet mirrors many different quotes and examples of such insights is the book "As A Man Thinketh" by James Allen.  (A downloadable copy will be linked at the end of this blog entry).  The reason I would like shorter books is I am a read it and reflect on it kinda gal.  I do not always require the verbal diarrhea as to how you or said author came to such a conclusion.  I also don't always give a rats fat ass either.  But the insight, that an author wants to share can be summarized nicely.  Think of it as the cliff-notes of an idea. This differs of course to a story of delusion, where one is being distracted from their own lives by living vicariously through characters, an adventure, or journey.  These books elaborate the details so that when written well, the very set of which this story takes place is so brilliant, the mind creates it with perfection.  Books of Illumination tend to sometimes be like books of regurgitation.  But I would enjoy a self help book to omit the "case study's" or "elaborate examples" of what the author is trying to convey.  A good example of jumping into illumination is "How to Make Someone Fall in Love With You in 90 Minutes or Less" by Nicholas Boothman.  This 330 pg book can actually change your life if you allow it to permeate through your mind.  A lot of the previously mentioned book can be overlooked or read at a later time.  The one reason I ask for a shorter book of any subjects is that there is so much revisiting previous information that I feel the reader, if they feel called to do so, can go back and find the sources of the material if they want.  I am also finding that because of social media, many seem to want to dominate a conversation or thread with their ideas without allowing others much time to ponder it.  Our society is becoming more an more lazy that anything long, the reader does not wish to read.  I am not saying we omit the insights, wisdom or even appendices or practice offered in some books, I am simply suggesting that a new wave of writers emerge from the depths of shadow when it comes to books of regurgitation and illumination.  Share your perspective/insight/conclusion but do not carry on with the ass licking of former explorers of said subject.  Offer kudos to their work, name them of course, but carry on to your point.

So, to summarize my point in one sentence:
Write with concise insights, and allow the reader to filter what is relevant.

~ by Arthena Sophia

(** The book by James Allen:  http://asamanthinketh.net/ **)

The Mystic and the Mind

A mystic is a person who lives in mystery, shadow, the fringes of society, one who knows occult secrets and practices in sacred ritual.  There are other definitions out there, but this one, is mine.  The mystic is one who works to reveal the ways of the illusionary world to those who have the open-mindedness to accept the mysteries that have been hidden by conventional teaching in school or dogmatic practice.  A mystic, also known to some as psychic, is one familiar with the activity of "clair".  Clairaudience, Clairsentience, Clairvoyance, Clairalience, Claircognizance to name but a few.  Some cultures may use the word "shaman".  But what these people really represent are the potential of our human mind to connect to the thread of time, experience, and comprehension of everything that ever was, is, and yet to be.  

The mind is one of development and expansion, looking always outwardly at another source to pin knowledge to, rather than seek the knowing within, into wisdom.  For what is wisdom really but a resonating truth so profound that it causes a physiological response of joy or excitement.  So many are writing their perspective of their experience, yet more still follow these nuggets of wisdom trying to seek their own truth.  Yet humanity cannot be saved by another's actions if it does not directly affect this timeline.  For example, one who died in battle to save my country from tyranny, does not save me from tyranny today.  What the mystic provides is confirmation, or consolidation of a path chosen by the individual.  The mystic does not, or at least, should not offer absolutes, but rather the likelihood of facts as they appear on a current timeline.  Yet sometimes, these do in fact, become true occurrences.  It means, that the timeline was not changed from the moment of knowing.  And perhaps the mystic tapped into a timeline so secure, that fate was inevitable.  A mystic also offers guidance to another of what is needed to heal, or to grow (expand) as a soul.  The mind of a mystic is of symbols, or metaphors.  Occasionally there is a phrase or sentence, but often it is in pictures or sensations.  Another practice of a mystic is that of listening.  Tapping into a wisdom greater than itself so that it may learn of what the cosmic mind wishes to share.  Think of this mind as a master computer, collecting data from every computer ever created and in operation.  The knowledge is vast and limitless, but the wisdom to choose what knowledge to share, relies solely on the individual mystic; and what is accepted by another based on their own free will.  The mystic may try to convey truth, or an alternative perspective to aid the one seeking a thread to follow.  As though the lost child walks through a dark forest, only to be guided to a single lit cabin.  A mind closed cannot hear the words of the mystic.  Nor can a mind wrapped in dogma hear the words of mental liberation.  Yet the mystic must also learn when to stop talking, teaching and guiding and allow the traveler to find their own way.  Think of the mystic as an eye able to see a clear path, and the hand reaching out to guide you.  It is always and only up to you, to either see the same path, choose another, or accept the guidance of the mystic to guide you onto one that will most benefit your evolution.

By Arthena Sophia

Love Will Tear Us Apart

LOVE is _____________?!!

What you want it to be.  What you have learned that it is. What you have been programmed to accept.
Love is the most powerful, miscomprehended, mysterious forces out there.  In romantic love, we know the euphoric feelings, the sensation of warmth on our skin, and of course the promise of a future together.  There is scientific evidence that when in love, our body produces the yummy hormone "Oxytocin".  This elation drug that our own body produces is designed to allow us to procreate, blinding us to the person we may be perceiving as our ideal.  It also ensnares us into the web of delusion - should the one we are in love with be manipulating us.  Those with sociopathic, or psychopathic tendencies are aware of this, and have a very good game at getting others to be "in love" with them.  Sacrificing their better judgement as we fall deeper and deeper into addiction to our own programming.

In an ideal situation, both people feel the effects of this drug.  This allows us to fall into "Unconditional love".  By both people feeling the state of euphoria, they are able to dream their biggest dreams and assist one another to manifest them.  Working together as a symbiotic union.  Yet sadly, most of humanity is not programmed for this, nor do we know what to do when we feel this type of love.  Often, we sabotage it.

Yet, often, as I have witnessed (and experienced), the oxytocin wears off.  The person for whom one felt for strongly for fades away, and some would question whether or not they ever were truly in love.  I would answer, yes, and no.

In these circumstances often one loves more than the other.  And the one who loves more feels that their love can carry the relationship.  Phrases like "If I just love them enough" or "I have enough love for both of us" are at best a symptom of being played.  The other may not have socio/psycho-pathic tendencies, but they may be incompatible with the person over flowing with adoration.

Our societies have romanticized love so much that the very story of "boy meets girl, boy loses girl, boy tries to get girl back, boy gets girl back" are just the tip of the iceberg.  I often ask "what happens AFTER happily ever after?" A concept that Disney and Hollywood films have left out.  We don't get to see the fights, and the ways we can make up (without sex). We don't get to see how a couple struggles through tight finances and still ends up liking each other.  We are not able to learn how to be a couple after the honeymoon phase.  And so our relationships suffer.

In a worse case scenerio, one party is abusive.
And it doesn't mean just violent or verbal.  A partner can be sexually abusive (either excessive or abandonment of affection), financial, emotional, and an array of other methods.  Basically when one knows they are being mistreated on a consistent basis where the abuser is fully aware of their behavior, then it is best they leave the situation.  Sometimes in the case of financial and emotionally abusive relationships, the abuser may need to have counselling to learn how to behave better, and the abused needs counselling to no longer accept or attract this type of attention/affection into their lives.

Then there are the relationships of dominant co-dependence.  This may seem like an abusive relationship, but all it really is is that one of the people does not know how to be independent cause they were never taught.  It can be a burden on the other, who has to remind, guide and even school their partner into what to do when, but over all, if a resentment builds, then it is best they part.

I feel, that relationships end for many reasons.  And not all of them are bad.  Some couples are great at communication and realize they have grown apart, and so separate amicably, others fight for dominance till the bitter end. Usually causing one if not both people to be financially destitute after.

It is best to stay single, or offer honesty if you wish to be a swinging single person.  And if the other deludes themselves, well that is on them.  At least you can say "I was up front with my intentions".  As we build up our own integrity and begin living authentically, then love won't be such a travesty.  Yet if you do not know your own heart, I would strongly suggest learning to love the best and worst sides of you, before you commit to loving another.

~ Arthena Sophia