Murder On My Mind

There is a calm among madness which stirs up thoughts of such ferocity, that man has not ever seen.  It is the mind of the one who desires restoration, balance, and selflessness.  It is the mind tired of those who have taken, and spit upon the misfortune of others.  It is the mind of the high priestess of whole-istic magick.  And it is the mind of myself.  Thanks to a very very strong sense of right/wrong, I know it is not honorable to kill another just cause they perturb me.  But there are moments, like today, when I need an outlet.  When I want a "purge" to take place and to annihilate those who would disrupt my peace.

I target those who are selfish, and lost so far into the program, that rehabilitation is not possible.  I have thoughts of purging their soul of evil so that they would return to a world and live in harmony, to find the love and acceptance then need to be held in grace.  

But my thoughts, these thoughts are my own torment, for I feed them the blood lust they need by mentally enacting scenes of rage and violence only a Tarantino film could emulate.  This is part of the darkness of my soul, this is the part of the side of me I hide - until tonight, where energy is being harvested during a vast hypnosis known as "american football".  I have fantasies of destroying arenas, of annihilating those who participate in rituals of the dark harvest - yet... sometimes, people I love attend. And sometimes - people are just so young and needing a distraction, their fear of self discovery carpeted over like a stain on the floor.

I am working, quite diligently to keep my sanity at this time, to not allow my own madness enough rope to actually act out on these dark thoughts - but they are there, and they want action.  So instead I write.  I write them here to give them a voice, and to share, that some of us who really want to enact a scene from a Kali-Ma greeting card, are strong enough to not engage in physical activity to support this.  That as much as the cabalic forces want me to rage so hard that I lose myself to it - which of course would ultimately destroy the very being I am working so diligently on becoming. 

I am on day 3 of menses, the high point of violent thinking and also of power.  I am also at the point where my body is so tired of being part of the minority that sees the disruption, separation and division that sport activities create.  Yet, I am also aware that I live of a time of transition.  We are removing the times of illusion, and bringing it all to light - so too shall my self that rages.  In time, she will be no more, and in time I will be able to sit in the sun, in peace and bliss, knowing I am complete, and whole in my joy.  So as you have read this, know, that this part of my mind, is kept very well guarded, and on constant surveillance by my own will.  I pray it never become compromised.

-Arthena Sophia-

*Image of Rhianna from her track: "bitch better have my money"*

A Priestess May Well Be...

You are able to recognize a Priestess only during her preparation for ceremony. Otherwise she could be anyone. A Priestess may heavily adorn herself with make up or jewelry to show status. She may also dress in attire that would awaken her power. What many may not know is that a Priestess, even when not in ceremony, is in constant communication with the other worlds. She is working to master the control of these communications, as well as to manage them when important information does come through. The Priestess will often show signs of telepathy or psychic abilities. She may also choose to hold on to this information, should she need it later against you. She is not good nor bad - she IS. A Priestess is the master of the spirit with the physical - after all, it is women who are the portal between worlds of life and death. The power of the Priestess would depend on how well she is to master herself, and her chosen craft. There are different areas where a Priestess may choose to be of service to, but no matter which faith, philosophy or dogma that she chooses, know she is a powerful force, and not one to ever be trifled with. Yet if you do cross her path, and make her cross, make amends quickly. As she grows from Master into Sage, she will learn the discernment of who to curse, who to vex, and who to just let alone. For one of the best ways to recognize a Priestess is by listening to the words she uses, or by watching her dance. A Priestess is a free, wild woman of mystery and sensuality. This is both her power, and her way to open up to the information on the other side. Oh, you may also have an idea of who is a Priestess by how open her eyes are when she looks at you. And if you only see yourself, in a way that is unsettling, that the owner of those eyes may just be a magickal woman, known as a Priestess. - by Arthena Sophia

Lustful Infatuation: Feeding the Illusion

"You know my name... cause you have whispered it on your tongue a dozen times, just this week.  I am your perfect lover, and I am always here."

I know it is wrong of me to think of you in these ways, but alas my mind body and soul are at a point of delving into the sweet texture of your knowing.  I wish to caress the skin that covers you with firm adoration and purposeful intentions.  I would enjoy arousing you to depths within your own being.  I have gazed upon you, without you looking, simply to drink your intoxicating radiance into my mouth - via my eyes.  I know parts of you that I long to explore but yet only have through ethereal worlds where there are no restrictions to physical contact.  I see you there, clueless to my observation, beautiful, clever, and dynamic.  Yet, my sweet beloved muse, you tease me.  You tease me without even knowing of this torment.  Sometimes, I wonder if you are aware of my lustful infatuation that I would give 1 breath just to be able to raise your voice to crescendic ovation.  When your face catches mine, I simply smile.  A sweet and gentle smile so that you know I mean you no harm.  In the grandness of everything, we may not even make contact - the way I would want us to.  But simply to gaze upon your regularity of being fills me with elated appreciation of perceiving such a gift.  I wish there was a way for me to convey my heart, no - my lust, so that you could know that my abyss of mystery waits for you.  Come closer dear one, and allow me the alluring scent of your essence so that I may carry your perfection with me always.  Bless me with a kiss perhaps, to fill my soul with light, so that I may glow each time your name is said on my lips.  If I could be with you, I would find a way.  Our space, and differences reduce this logical union.  Instead, I inhale you - in simplistic devotion, allowing my illusion to be fed.

By Arthena Sophia

Delusion or Illumination

Writers are seekers of information.

Some seek truth, others create distractions, and others still combine the two as in "historical fiction".  In observing the different styles of writing and comparing my own, I see only 3 general types of books.  Books on delusion: fantasy, fable, fiction.  Books of Illumination: self-help, texts, biography. And books of regurgitation: anything already written but then re-analyzed but a different author; university or college texts for example.  With the last category, i would love to read a concise book.  So often there is a plethora of drivel in the book that gives kudos to pioneers in the field, addresses how the author came to write this book, and of course, who they would like to thank for leading them on this path.  I propose that authors of regurgitation re-structure their texts/novels as such:

• Research: a list of all sourced to acknowledge.
• Authors Insight: the concise message the author wishes to convey.
• Additional Reading: Suggestions of books read by the author to offer to the reader should they too desire more information.

What I have noticed is that the length of the book is more important than the content, and I would like this stopped.  Of course not everyone will follow my suggestions, as this is merely an observation.  Such an example of a concise book that allows the mind to ponder itself, and yet mirrors many different quotes and examples of such insights is the book "As A Man Thinketh" by James Allen.  (A downloadable copy will be linked at the end of this blog entry).  The reason I would like shorter books is I am a read it and reflect on it kinda gal.  I do not always require the verbal diarrhea as to how you or said author came to such a conclusion.  I also don't always give a rats fat ass either.  But the insight, that an author wants to share can be summarized nicely.  Think of it as the cliff-notes of an idea. This differs of course to a story of delusion, where one is being distracted from their own lives by living vicariously through characters, an adventure, or journey.  These books elaborate the details so that when written well, the very set of which this story takes place is so brilliant, the mind creates it with perfection.  Books of Illumination tend to sometimes be like books of regurgitation.  But I would enjoy a self help book to omit the "case study's" or "elaborate examples" of what the author is trying to convey.  A good example of jumping into illumination is "How to Make Someone Fall in Love With You in 90 Minutes or Less" by Nicholas Boothman.  This 330 pg book can actually change your life if you allow it to permeate through your mind.  A lot of the previously mentioned book can be overlooked or read at a later time.  The one reason I ask for a shorter book of any subjects is that there is so much revisiting previous information that I feel the reader, if they feel called to do so, can go back and find the sources of the material if they want.  I am also finding that because of social media, many seem to want to dominate a conversation or thread with their ideas without allowing others much time to ponder it.  Our society is becoming more an more lazy that anything long, the reader does not wish to read.  I am not saying we omit the insights, wisdom or even appendices or practice offered in some books, I am simply suggesting that a new wave of writers emerge from the depths of shadow when it comes to books of regurgitation and illumination.  Share your perspective/insight/conclusion but do not carry on with the ass licking of former explorers of said subject.  Offer kudos to their work, name them of course, but carry on to your point.

So, to summarize my point in one sentence:
Write with concise insights, and allow the reader to filter what is relevant.

~ by Arthena Sophia

(** The book by James Allen:  http://asamanthinketh.net/ **)

The Mystic and the Mind

A mystic is a person who lives in mystery, shadow, the fringes of society, one who knows occult secrets and practices in sacred ritual.  There are other definitions out there, but this one, is mine.  The mystic is one who works to reveal the ways of the illusionary world to those who have the open-mindedness to accept the mysteries that have been hidden by conventional teaching in school or dogmatic practice.  A mystic, also known to some as psychic, is one familiar with the activity of "clair".  Clairaudience, Clairsentience, Clairvoyance, Clairalience, Claircognizance to name but a few.  Some cultures may use the word "shaman".  But what these people really represent are the potential of our human mind to connect to the thread of time, experience, and comprehension of everything that ever was, is, and yet to be.  

The mind is one of development and expansion, looking always outwardly at another source to pin knowledge to, rather than seek the knowing within, into wisdom.  For what is wisdom really but a resonating truth so profound that it causes a physiological response of joy or excitement.  So many are writing their perspective of their experience, yet more still follow these nuggets of wisdom trying to seek their own truth.  Yet humanity cannot be saved by another's actions if it does not directly affect this timeline.  For example, one who died in battle to save my country from tyranny, does not save me from tyranny today.  What the mystic provides is confirmation, or consolidation of a path chosen by the individual.  The mystic does not, or at least, should not offer absolutes, but rather the likelihood of facts as they appear on a current timeline.  Yet sometimes, these do in fact, become true occurrences.  It means, that the timeline was not changed from the moment of knowing.  And perhaps the mystic tapped into a timeline so secure, that fate was inevitable.  A mystic also offers guidance to another of what is needed to heal, or to grow (expand) as a soul.  The mind of a mystic is of symbols, or metaphors.  Occasionally there is a phrase or sentence, but often it is in pictures or sensations.  Another practice of a mystic is that of listening.  Tapping into a wisdom greater than itself so that it may learn of what the cosmic mind wishes to share.  Think of this mind as a master computer, collecting data from every computer ever created and in operation.  The knowledge is vast and limitless, but the wisdom to choose what knowledge to share, relies solely on the individual mystic; and what is accepted by another based on their own free will.  The mystic may try to convey truth, or an alternative perspective to aid the one seeking a thread to follow.  As though the lost child walks through a dark forest, only to be guided to a single lit cabin.  A mind closed cannot hear the words of the mystic.  Nor can a mind wrapped in dogma hear the words of mental liberation.  Yet the mystic must also learn when to stop talking, teaching and guiding and allow the traveler to find their own way.  Think of the mystic as an eye able to see a clear path, and the hand reaching out to guide you.  It is always and only up to you, to either see the same path, choose another, or accept the guidance of the mystic to guide you onto one that will most benefit your evolution.

By Arthena Sophia

Love Will Tear Us Apart

LOVE is _____________?!!

What you want it to be.  What you have learned that it is. What you have been programmed to accept.
Love is the most powerful, miscomprehended, mysterious forces out there.  In romantic love, we know the euphoric feelings, the sensation of warmth on our skin, and of course the promise of a future together.  There is scientific evidence that when in love, our body produces the yummy hormone "Oxytocin".  This elation drug that our own body produces is designed to allow us to procreate, blinding us to the person we may be perceiving as our ideal.  It also ensnares us into the web of delusion - should the one we are in love with be manipulating us.  Those with sociopathic, or psychopathic tendencies are aware of this, and have a very good game at getting others to be "in love" with them.  Sacrificing their better judgement as we fall deeper and deeper into addiction to our own programming.

In an ideal situation, both people feel the effects of this drug.  This allows us to fall into "Unconditional love".  By both people feeling the state of euphoria, they are able to dream their biggest dreams and assist one another to manifest them.  Working together as a symbiotic union.  Yet sadly, most of humanity is not programmed for this, nor do we know what to do when we feel this type of love.  Often, we sabotage it.

Yet, often, as I have witnessed (and experienced), the oxytocin wears off.  The person for whom one felt for strongly for fades away, and some would question whether or not they ever were truly in love.  I would answer, yes, and no.

In these circumstances often one loves more than the other.  And the one who loves more feels that their love can carry the relationship.  Phrases like "If I just love them enough" or "I have enough love for both of us" are at best a symptom of being played.  The other may not have socio/psycho-pathic tendencies, but they may be incompatible with the person over flowing with adoration.

Our societies have romanticized love so much that the very story of "boy meets girl, boy loses girl, boy tries to get girl back, boy gets girl back" are just the tip of the iceberg.  I often ask "what happens AFTER happily ever after?" A concept that Disney and Hollywood films have left out.  We don't get to see the fights, and the ways we can make up (without sex). We don't get to see how a couple struggles through tight finances and still ends up liking each other.  We are not able to learn how to be a couple after the honeymoon phase.  And so our relationships suffer.

In a worse case scenerio, one party is abusive.
And it doesn't mean just violent or verbal.  A partner can be sexually abusive (either excessive or abandonment of affection), financial, emotional, and an array of other methods.  Basically when one knows they are being mistreated on a consistent basis where the abuser is fully aware of their behavior, then it is best they leave the situation.  Sometimes in the case of financial and emotionally abusive relationships, the abuser may need to have counselling to learn how to behave better, and the abused needs counselling to no longer accept or attract this type of attention/affection into their lives.

Then there are the relationships of dominant co-dependence.  This may seem like an abusive relationship, but all it really is is that one of the people does not know how to be independent cause they were never taught.  It can be a burden on the other, who has to remind, guide and even school their partner into what to do when, but over all, if a resentment builds, then it is best they part.

I feel, that relationships end for many reasons.  And not all of them are bad.  Some couples are great at communication and realize they have grown apart, and so separate amicably, others fight for dominance till the bitter end. Usually causing one if not both people to be financially destitute after.

It is best to stay single, or offer honesty if you wish to be a swinging single person.  And if the other deludes themselves, well that is on them.  At least you can say "I was up front with my intentions".  As we build up our own integrity and begin living authentically, then love won't be such a travesty.  Yet if you do not know your own heart, I would strongly suggest learning to love the best and worst sides of you, before you commit to loving another.

~ Arthena Sophia 

Rise from FEAR

FEAR

Face

Everything

And 

Rise

Yet how many of you feel fear and stand like a doe facing an 18 wheeler? The purpose of creating fear is to raise ones adrenaline. This hormone is very interesting as it releases a scent... you know that one picked up by animal predators. Often when this is happening our blood they say has a specific taste to it.  It has been known through many spiritual channels that fear is what the ruling class, and the dark ones seek to keep creating in us.  Our adrenaline is feeding SOMETHING.

What is that thing?

It is something of your worst nightmares, a concoction of your whole life and all of the stories of boogiemen you were ever told.  Yet like all perceptions, it is false.  Another FEAR interpretation is False Evidence Appearing Real.  Have you ever noticed that sometimes when enough time has passed, that as you look back on why you were afraid of something or someone was due to the evidence your own mind convinced you was true?  If you answered yes, then trust me, fear is an illusion. Literally.

But as a human being, we do feel fear for good reason: Survival.  But this emotion has been manipulated by what we know as the media.  And if we cannot be made to fear, we will be made to anger.  But that is for another blog entry.

As we feel fear, we have two choices. To act, or to ignore.  If we act we may have to evaluate if our life is threatened, or if our own perception is faulty.  If we ignore it, it may be because we are about to die anyway, or because the fear is false.  Fear is at the base of all hidden emotions and feelings, and no matter what reason you may feel in the dense energies, fear is the beginning and the end.

So as you look into the abyss of fear, fear will be looking back at you.  Decide which will triumph.


~ by Arthena Sophia